Secret Place [The Most Holy Place]

What is the Secret Place? Well, of course, it’s a secret! A secret between you and God in which God is “our refuge and fortress.” In the Old Testament God gave very clear and detailed instructions as to how His children should enter into this Holy Place. Of course then, just like everything else, the Holy Place was a physical place, in the physical world made with wood, gold, bronze, and many other resources still found on this earth today (Exodus 29). Likewise, in the Old Testament those who worshiped God needed an intermediary to be the High Priest and enter the Holy Place for them. In the New Testament, and today, The Secret Place is now your Secret Place (Matthew 6:6), wherein we may (and should) freely worship and pray to God.

My Secret Place I make known to you in the physical, with words and ideas. Although my experience you may never know, because you will experience such a thing in your own way. When I exclude my senses from the world, I make communication with Him the only reality. Reality becomes a glorious place, and I am free from all the chains in my life that hold me. I pray to God with all that I am, mostly that I may know Him, and that he will make His plan for me as clear as day. I spend time thanking Him for all that He has given me, which is beyond anything I could even begin to understand. At times, He lets me understand a taste of what He has for me, and, regularly, I weep. Knowing God in this way clears my mind that I might be transformed to make His Glory known.

Jesus said in Matthew 6, verse 6:

“But you, when you pray, go into your room, and when you have shut your door, pray to your Father who is in the Secret Place; and your Father who sees in secret will reward you in openly.”

So, I invite you to find this secret place for your own, truly, as Jesus himself said. God will reward you, openly, for your prayers which are in secret. Find out how He rewards you. What do you need? Tell Him, daily, in secret. And remember, God knows what you need, we pray to Him to build the relationship, and, my personal favorite, to make good on the promise of Philippians 4:6-7.

Thank you for your support and encouragement. Especially you, Dad.

God Bless you, and feel more than free to share you experiences with God in His Secret Place in the comments.




With my mind I know truth to be  things like 2+2=4. As well as  technicalities that have been proven accurate or at the very least so widely accepted that no one even considers questioning them. These ‘truths’ are easy to understand, anyone can be taught these truths. Likewise, anyone can establish these facts in their own mind without any reservation concerning their accuracy. There are right answers and there are wrong answers and distinctions to these, that I make in my mind. Likewise, there are truths that are only be true for me. The distinction of these truths, I make with my spirit/heart.

My Spirit was once dormant, and so the truths that needed it’s filter were often perceived for lies and vice versa. When I saw good things, like financial success, I was tempted to think “How can that person be so selfish and greedy, can’t they see other people in need?”  But now I know that God wants me to be successful (2 Corinthians 8:9), and those people that don’t know God and are still financially successful are operating in laws that the bible talks about (Mark 11:23), whether they know it or not.

In John, before His crucifixion, Jesus tells his disciples about the Holy Spirit. In chapter 14 verse 26, Jesus sums up the Holy Spirit’s job on earth in this way: “But when the Father sends the Advocate as my representative—that is, the Holy Spirit—he will teach you everything and will remind you of everything I have told you.” Jesus is promising his disciples, which includes us, that they will not be alone on earth when Jesus leaves.

Jesus said, “He is the Holy Spirit, who leads into all truth. The world cannot receive him, because it isn’t looking for him and doesn’t recognize him. But you know him, because he lives with you now and later will be in you” (14:17).

Bear with me for a moment when I say that humans did not need the holy spirit to figure out that 2+2=4. God gave us a powerful brain for that, which is a gift that many of us have perverted by not using for God. Humans need the Holy Spirit to answer questions like, “How do I talk to my best friend about Jesus?” That isn’t a technical question, but doesn’t every question have an answer?  Truly. And for me this answer comes from only one place. The Holy Spirit.

Whether I am praising God and listening to the Holy Spirit, reading the word and seeking out the Holy Spirit, or praying and specifically asking God questions, the Holy Spirit always answers my questions. He always imparts truth into my soul that only he can give me.

What kind of truth do you need?


Thank you for your love and support

God Bless you



All scriptures from the New Living Translation


I fight many horrible things that take away from the quality of life God intended for me. I get bored and lost often, I forget what matters, and I wonder around doing only the bare minimum to get by at times. I will curse myself, beg to not be meant for more; to be OK with mediocrity. I don’t intend in part or in full to let my mind slip into this rut. Nor can I say that I enjoy any part of it. How can I let something stay in my life that I dislike? How can I voluntarily be OK with something so poisonous? At times, I simply lack purpose. I lack a driving force behind my actions.

My purpose was alive for a good part of the summer, and it took the form of school. For five weeks I had three full length classes to just absolutely destroy, which I did, and I knew exactly what to do every single moment of every day. For roughly 18 hours a week of those five weeks I worked. Roughly 9 hours a week I was in a classroom. I had tons of essays to write, subjunctive Spanish verb forms to learn, excerpts and poems to read and analyze. The list is huge and I knew every detail of it well in advance. I didn’t even think- I just did things and this made my summer a flash of lightning.

Time went by so fluidly, I mean the summer, it’s over! September is here, Fall is coming, Pumpkin spice is days away and class is already back in session. What is happening?! What have I been doing for the past week since school ended as I anticipate the fall semester? I feel as if I have been doing nothing. I have been doing things: picking up extra hours at work, starting, and finishing, several blog drafts, starting Bible School, cleaning, reading, writing, riding my bike, etc. This list is also rather extensive, and there are several productive activities presented here but in my spirit, and in my soul I feel as if I am not promoting my future as I truly desire.

I have been learning that much of what life’s composition is distraction. Seeking wealth, and a future for one’s own gain and legacy is not bad by any means, but for me it does not, independently,  fill the throbbing pit in my soul. When my purpose is not clear, even my productive activities feel unproductive. I lie awake and wonder what in the world I am doing even though I got the grades I needed, my waist is shrinking, and my bank accounts are growing. I lack a greater purpose. This always leaves me empty. I do not feel as if there is anything that I can do in my own name that is worth my time.

That may sound self-loathing, and morbid; perhaps one of the thoughts that leads me into a spiraling depression, but it is not. It is the thought which reminds me that God is the only purpose that I have ever known to fulfill me, and beyond that His is the only name that I have found to be worthy. With God, and knowing how He sees me, I can confidently say that I can be productive and know that all I do is for a greater purpose- His purpose.

Knowing God is my purpose. Knowing him and making him known. That’s what makes my God different than any other god or ‘religion’. My only purpose is to know Him. For me, that’s all I need. I can’t stand to do things when I know they are worthless. So with God and His purpose, I find value. All I do is for Him, and now I am happy. I find peace and Joy in knowing this. I seek Him and I love Him. Above all I love Him and pray that He helps me love others.

Ephesians 3:6-7       And this is God’s plan: Both Gentiles and Jews who believe the Good News share equally in the riches inherited by God’s children. Both are part of the same body, and both enjoy the promise of blessings because they belong to Christ Jesus.By God’s grace and mighty power, I have been given the privilege of serving him by spreading this Good News.

Yes, I believe the good news. Thanks to my belief, or faith, in Christ Jesus, I inherit God’s riches and enjoy the promise of His blessings. All of which are found in His word and are imparted through my, and your, personal relationship with God. In my Spirit and now in my renewed Soul I want nothing more than to bring the people I love and all the people I meet to His Good News. This is God’s plan and purpose for my life. I understand it for myself as I have elaborated and I encourage you to do the same.

Thank you for your love and support

God Bless You


Proof [for yourself]

There’s so much to confuse me; so much to distance me from myself.

I can’t express how lost I feel when my own mind challenges what I believe in my heart. It’s tit for tat. I can find a positively reinforced argument for why I should have faith, but I could also find an equally ‘reasonable’ argument for why God might not even exist… With the internet, thousands of years of history, and billions of interpretations on one subject, you can find a ‘reasonable’ argument for anything. So I decided, “I won’t let simple confusions detract from my life’s work to God’s glory.” I decided to find God without needing to convince myself that I have found Him.

In Romans chapter 12, Paul writes about proving what is the good, acceptable, and perfect will of God. Who do you suppose you should be proving this to? God? No, because he knows it already. Should you be proving to others what God’s perfect will is? Well… yes, but how can you teach something that you cannot yet fully understand? So first, you must prove to yourself what God’s will for you is. Paul writes that in order to attain this proof, you must be transformed.

Why do you need to be transformed? I needed to be transformed because I had tasted God’s goodness and at some point, I let it fall from my life. I could not bear it so I needed to live my life by God’s plan, and in order to do so I had to change my life. God changes lives- I believe that, but much like a car can change your life, it won’t do so by sitting in the driveway. You have to choose to make it work for you and use it. So I chose God. I made that choice in my mind.

I make choices everyday and they are a reflection of what I think, which is a reflection of who I am, according to Proverbs 27. If who I am is conformed to this world (today’s culture, today’s popular news, etc.), then my thoughts will be evil, and my actions will be evil regardless of my intentions because, “The carnal mind is enmity against God” Romans 8:7. I cannot please God without having a renewed mind, because my un-renewed mind cannot understand the law of God (which nowadays is grace and life through Jesus).

For renewal, I do a few things. Most importantly, I read verses like Romans 12:2, 2 Corinthians 5:17 and really all of Romans chapter 8, and I meditate on them. I pray that God will make the message verses evident to me as he sees fit. I confess them out loud to tell my body and mind what it will do. I exercise luke 6:45 (out of the abundance…) by believing, beyond the shadow of a doubt, that God has only good for me. I desire not only to be renewed in my mind, but to go as far as to be completely spiritually minded. Through all of this renewal I find my daddy God and make it a daily celebration that I know in whom my life is complete.

Then, with my renewed mind, I don’t have to wonder who my Father is. I know Him, personally, and He completes me.

“For God is not the author of confusion, but of peace” 1 Cor. 14:33

Thank you for your love and support

God Bless you



Ephesians 2:8-9
 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast.


Jesus is your salvation, He is the bridge between you and God. He brought grace into this world in place of the law. The law, that is to say ‘do this and don’t do that’, focused on the ability of men to remain righteous through our actions . Grace on the other hand, allows Jesus to step into our lives and become our salvation.

This means that when we leave this earth in death and stand before God to be judged Jesus will tell God whether or not we have received and accepted Jesus and what He has done for us. Regardless of what we do in our lives, regardless of how much we sin, if we continually acknowledge Jesus as our Lord and savior, we are saved and don’t have to suffer in Hell for eternity. Thank God!

Some great news that I have discovered is that the closer I get to God, the more I seek his wisdom and peace, the less often I sin, because I don’t want to be pulled away from Him. My spirit man is taking precedence and I am living in accordance with 2 Corinthians 5:17. I continuously acknowledge that I am a new creation and that, according to Romans 12, my mind is being renewed.

There is much to learn and much to discover in the depths of the bible and a relationship with Jesus. The beginning, however, is simple: accept Jesus and what he’s done for you. Declare Him the Lord of your life and learn to love him, as you would a best friend. The only difference is that Jesus will never betray you or let you down.

Thank you for your love and support


One Thing

13  By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this; but one thing I do [it is my one aspiration]: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead14 I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.

Philippians 3 encompasses the subjects of knowing God personally and being focused on the goal. What does that mean exactly? Let me help you find out as I have. As Paul so humbly says, I’m not an expert in all or any of this. I only know that through Jesus is the only way I can reach my goal and receive my prize. With his Joy, I find my strength to forget what lies behind and strain forward to what lies ahead. ‘What is it that lies ahead?’, you may ask, I know I have wondered the same thing.

There are many things that can happen to us. What happened to Paul after Jesus left earth landed him in Prison as a direct means to persecute him as a Christian. Prison is not what it is today. He was beaten, starved and chained. He could have let his thoughts overtake him into believing that he had done wrong or offended God, but he didn’t. He hardly even mentions his current situation. What does he do instead? He writes a very large portion of the new testament which is a foundation that much of Christianity relies on today. Through Paul, God brought much of the Gospel, or good news of Jesus, to all the world. Remember, God did not force his way into Paul’s extremities to physically write while Paul was in prison. No, Paul chose to disregard his past and current situations, lean on God and press forward to what lies ahead.

You’ll notice that this is titled “One Thing”. Yes, I know there is a preposition linking the ideas of forgetting and straining, suggesting that it’s actually two things. This is no error. It must be one choice, one action and one intention. If you, who operate presently, expose your past, there is no other time period besides the future to look or act upon. I have made the mistake of questioning my choice by trying to think my way through this. I was met with trouble because I did not complete my action of faith. The key word is action. I implore you to decisively do something different than what you normally do.

As for what to do: ultimately, as I have found through experience and in my ever increasing relationship with Jesus, what lies ahead is up to you. You make the choices, you can probably openly admit you’ve made wrong choices, why not make some good ones? Don’t talk yourself out of it, I can’t stress this enough – decide what to do and then do it. In one motion.  You just have to remember the one thing that will keep you on the right track: forgetting your past and straining to press on toward the call of Godly, heavenly things in Jesus.


Strength Part 1

It occurred to me the monumental amount of strength it takes to function on this earth.
I was watching a movie and in this movie there were many soldiers that had to watch their general die. You could consider that here, the word general also means best friend. That is to say that these soldiers were very close to their general. The kind of close that leaves a gap in your soul and tears through your mind like a tornado would a straw house. You have questions that never get answered, nights that never end and food that makes you ill. Experiencing this over and over had long been my life but now I’m interested in the finding strength when all seems lost, so that I may strive toward my bright future and goals.

Consider a day. If normal and effective, you’d wake up and eat breakfast at an alarmingly slow rate. Perhaps you’d leave your dishes in the sink or clean them on the spot if you have time. I like to make my bed at this point, then it’s time for a shower and roughly 30 minutes of other morning rituals. Now you’re dressed with your pockets full of daily necessities and you endeavor to begin daily production. It is possible, as it is for me much of the time, that instead of a proper ‘nine to fiver’ you attend school, work or have any number of projects.

Some time passes when your stomach reminds you what time of day it is. (Note: remember that eating breakfast actually increases appetite and metabolism.) So you eat lunch, more than likely within a specific amount of time and hopefully not alone. Depending on how many commitments you have in your life, you may find yourself back with the job or project you were at previously or doing something completely different. A few more hours of hard work and you discover a magnificent feeling: accomplishment. Then sun is still up and traffic is unforgiving but you are ecstatic to say that you have had a successful and productive day.

Now we rest. Unwind as your day comes to an end and get comfortable with family and friends (unless you’re a bachelor like me.) If you’re like me, your evening will also include some small cleaning tasks and organization. Suffice it so say, though, that all mentioned events preceding this paragraph are a normal day. Now take the pain I mentioned earlier and inject in anywhere you’d like. Imagine it, go ahead, I’ll wait.

I do apologize for the image you are now experiencing however I would consider it foolish to ignore reality and dismiss this notion: Without some source of unwavering strength, your normal day would collapse. I’ve experienced it and I’m sure you’ve experienced it. You feel the pain and at first it’s uncomfortable just a small nag, but without answering that feeling, it grows within you. At breakfast the bad news hardly entered your ears and now at lunch or dinner or the next day it seems to be all you can think about and all you can feel. It consumes you when you don’t have the strength to fight it.

Then I found an infinite source of strength. I’d like to now direct your attention to Nehemiah 8:10. It’s very possible that you’ve heard this: The joy of the Lord is my strength. That’s so simple and encouraging! In God’s joy, I have strength! In context, I could even further blow your mind, however I believe I’ll save that for another (or next) time.

Thank you for your Love and Support




Matthew 15:10-12

10 Jesus called the crowd to him and said, “Listen and understand. What goes into someone’s mouth does not defile them, but what comes out of their mouth, that is what defiles them.”12 Then the disciples came to him and asked, “Do you know that the Pharisees were offended when they heard this?

When Jesus was thirty years old, he began His ministry to the people of Israel. During the three and a half years preceding his crucifixion, He performed many miracles, gained many followers (or disciples) and always did what was in God’s plan for him to do. That man, the Son of God, loved everyone as He loves me and as He loves you: perfectly. He spoke truth, He spoke life and cursed only Satan and sin itself. Yet somehow his actions and his words managed to offend the ‘leaders’ of the Jewish church so drastically that they tortured and killed him. It does not seem fair to me that it has become acceptable to be offended so often by good things, good people and just plain common sense.

I’ve decided to start of this blog, a fruit of my labors and a form of my worship, on this subject because I know what the status quo is. I know in which direction this nation and most of this world is going and that direction causes great desire in me. A desire to help as much as I can the only way that I know works. It is a direction filled with chaos, without reverence for anything and void of God – complete and utter darkness.  I remember my life when it was a facade. I had created a bubble whose hot air was drugs, alcohol and so much raw emotion in a series of terrible relationships that I care not to relive it or even remember it. Remembering these feelings that I thought I couldn’t control prompts me to write to the benefit of anyone who wants true freedom, a clear mind and hope in their future even when the world is so dim.

If you’ve read this far, you know that I do not intend to offend anyone, although I know I will, just as Jesus did. I am, after all, only doing His work and being His witness. My heart and intentions are pure as judged only by God and known only by me, my writing is improving and my mind is expanding with each day and every word that I read. I will, til my dying day, fight for the freedom that we were born to thrive in. I will not let those that I love continuously miss out on all that God has for us.

If you do believe in God, then understand that all God wants is to love you and to give you satisfaction in all that you experience. If you don’t believe in God (I’m surprised you’ve read this far), then so be it. I can’t change your mind. Just do me a favor and the next time you can’t force the smile, pray and ask God to comfort you. Open up to him, He can’t hurt you like people. Only God can give you lasting peace and perfect love.

Thank you for all of your love and support